fear of mold
fear of brittleness
a fear of oxidation
adobe flash player's end of life coming up very soon...:(
the end of an era, a lot of memories, cool content
relevant articles: "Flash Back! Further Thoughts on Flash at the Internet Archive",
"Flash Animations Live Forever at the Internet Archive"
like a murky ink spot, for the closer we reach its innerness, still this intense obscurity
delaying more and more tasks
it's as if my head is going to melt or something
staying in will never feel completely the same, for now at least
What does 1,000 mean when most of this year was covered dust and cobwebs? Should I do something about it?
predictable runs and hops, jumps and skips, twirls, but nonetheless brillant
steel resounding my frustrations
The fantasy of expatriatism has crawled out of the cupboard and into the open again.
"it's changed from something comfortable to something else instead" -JC
Les dames de la poste...
thoughts of linen
Conveniently logged in for the 1000th day of the blog. Not surprised this year has looked like swiss cheese.
Otherwise, I hope to keep updating this on the daily, as I once intended to.
please shut up
stowing away was no longer an occasion. today was mainly uneventful other than unanswered knocks at the door. happy halloween
unknown in cloudy decay
this has been 3 years, 3 years of cyan magenta yellow key
my site is ripping apart, well maybe
imagining a scribbled manuscript
"Key Largo" - Sarah Vaughan
écoute, écoute, écoute
quicksand, not yet
in the palm
encapsulated :: plenteous trite :: À ma porte
stirrings in style of Honoré Daumier
lexicon of stranded sailors
airlock, a listen
genericized haushold name
assembly of mack crepe loss
flicker with ease
this is point where i was going to see where i was at, 300 days ago;
this is absolute abandonware and i kind of don't like it. null movements
weiver // review
list of cookies
II - VI - I
Sony Product & Technology Milestones
hand - nikola tatic
homage to zgouzgou the cat
Happy new year, I guess.
nakagin capsule tower
quartier des spectacles
east of the sun (west of the moon)
2nd - clrvar
vzpomínám si na tebe
otevřel dveře :: zpustošený :: zpomalení
of titan, mimas, & rhea
turn the dial
dwelling : light freeze : almost plain
l a d a
50s school films
por todas partes
tengo que descansar
esta semana no termina
living - dining - kitchen
rubber duck debugging
habitat 67, moshe safdie
lost in the freezer section
delay drenched in reverb
Journal des Débats 1834 - 1863
Yes! We're Open
stuck in a lift
occasional thunderstorms today
JAB - Menu Music For a Video Game (warning: contains bright flashing colours)
i think i'll give myself 300 days and see where i'm at
idleness is here to stay.
experiment in fifths
phobos and deimos, martian moons
in a hurry
Iku Akiyama, prolific illustrator.
the bronze ornamentation
intergalactic concept cars
huevos de pascua
never was a commuter
bonhommes de neige
cyanotypes to arrive
seaside but not even close
french impressionist paintings
species of space and other pieces
inventario sin invención
4 rows of 13 cards
something i found: sleep inertia
made rizskoch :: apricot :: sort of drowsy
encontré un libro
peas in a pod
milk carton of consumerism
voix - ludmila mikaël
tracing an outline
Doppio più lento
rain drizzling outside
1 year = an untidy mass of text
pykrete ice dome
sfortzando :: slightly malignant :: detachment
solemn deck of cards
Scène aux champs
methods of dance
une vie sans mouvement
〈 ｅｉｓｂäｒ 〉
15:35-- pondered over subjects and practice
the ink proceeds to consume my work
spilling black ink all over the table
rokk í reykjavík
hushed yet meticulous sound swept me
películas italianas y té verde
factory records 1980
incoherent notes on a language i have no use for
todos las cosas no necesito
creased beige walls
an economy of words i must be using
intermezzo :: made layer cake :: influx
a spectre kept under thin glass
collecting debris in a plastic dustpan
hunting for books to read
engulf these hours in petrol
dissolution :: delicate paper boxes :: scattered voices
digging a hole
red maple leaf
missing a cue ᠅ Информация
pursuing an unreachable goal
made babka maślana z rumem :: was a success :: stay home for the long holiday
facing towards solstice
shutting the blinds to seal the nighttime sky
getting up to shut the blinds
pressing pause to get up
is it necessary to stop the tape?
jagged streets :: dynamics & fluidity :: unaware of consequence
no more limited editions
rubric to satisfy
a decrease in productivity
out of the blue
release the shoppers :: 𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘒-𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘵
phantom vi special
le • système • des • objets
made kluski śląskie :: was tasty ( ・ω・)⊃-[二二] :: they turned out nicely
the first item i’ll purchase for my flat will be a coffee press (cafetière à piston).
but the regrets
had marmite toast for breakfast
first snow commencing :: layering-up with coats and scarves :: bleak and unforgiving winds
organization is impossible
Ya cortamos.. ¿Dónde está el ritmo?
Toca más fuerte en la medida 154.
hurry up autumn :: these orange leaves float to the ground
wow and flutter
taro-flavoured :: weekends are excess :: clock ticks faster
sit inside :: sales on candy tomorrow :: that's fine (｡•́︿•̀｡)
i'm balancing on a shoelace,
figuring out how to carefully stay intact.
installed windows xp on virtualbox
i cooked up schupfnudeln. two hours prep :: going to the supermarket is hard
doesn't feel like autumn has fully settled in
three to nine
i found interest in vintage foreign film
C8H10N4O2 :: flustering :: studying for tests
today marks the one year anniversary of the creation of this site. what a bore. lemme go back to postponing work.
allegro :: end of line :: forget this :: i will be updating other areas
school is approaching. my only aim is to go through the motions for these next few years.
pocket-sized poetry and snippets for the alienated.
Gosha Rubchinskiy Гоша Рубчинский
mistook frantic heartbeat for footsteps, anxiety escalated
i left my wallet in el segundo
new sweat to drown me in
i’m predicting that my future will have a small apartment and a crt tv w/ a vhs player. maybe some silly decor or a tatami mat. barely breathing. maybe a sore frame and lungs. tireless eyes, a closed door. a little low-spirited yet comfy. too true.
it's rlly urgent for me to learn java and i can't keep track.
andy warhol's interview magazine.
i read the synopsis of metroland (1997) and it couldn't stir me up. i can't form a full opinion unless i've watched it. so eh
crosseyed and painless
wow this sucks
my week in the south is finished. i ate grits and went to food lion
fast, pulsing europop plays in the distance
close the door
black marble is elegant
i loathe summer holidays.
drank horrendous amounts of caffeine water, doodling faces and objects, still taking notes on russian language
riding fast on my road bike
17:51-- i wanna watch "howl's moving castle" again. o(╥﹏╥)
my holga snaps pics with film that expired in 2006.
trying to get a windows 3.1 laptop to function..
too many half-used notebooks and i cant decide which one to stick to.
ｙｅａ ｏｋａｙ．i see a redesign coming up. it's better now considering there's less gifs. i'm searching for this kind of motel, warm & pitiful vibe.
i have this folder titled "waste of time"- a bunch of reddit links. (´ω｀。)
electric piano mood r n b
i installed i3wm
"there's definitely, definitely, definitely no logic
to human behaviour
but yet so, yet so irresistible.."
-björk, "human behaviour"
ladies and gentlemen, i have installed arch linux. hooray.
17:53-- i took a break. now, it's time to begin installing a twm and a desktop environment.
13:21-- "notes from the underground"
people are setting off fireworks. my ears hurt, can't sleep. :(
up there or here i suppose
04:23-- i have returned. summer is blistering hot and humid. i wanna board up my windows and stay inside. btw my head is spinning with pretty much everything right now. it's unplesant.
i ought to break apart.
i have a fever and i am staying inside to prevent the spread of illness. i never thought this blog would go on for hundreds of days.
crewneck sweater club
..--empty room with no exit--..
i apologize if i have been sounding a bit glum or dismal. my lack of emotional connection to others is burdensome. it fluctuates from lingering to dreadfully apparent.
the best haikus are on the back of Ito-En Jasmine-Green Tea bottles
cry, cry, cry
no, stop it now. i don’t want to lose everything.
Hows ur weekend Gud Same-ish ? My weekend has resulted in similar feelings. What were they a general sadness and boredom Same
the collapse will come. i don't want it. i'm living in fear.
i’ll wait for the day to end. you’ve seen everythingandtoomuch.
It's always nice seeing rabbits in my backyard.
Bowie in Japan, photo by Masayoshi Sukita
Went back to Duolingo after weeks to see if still remembered any Russian. I didn’t have much difficulty, oddly enough.
the world has turned and left me here. i cried a lot this morning. i'm helpless.
make some food when you feel down
Windows NT clouds.
I’m not the best at writing
offonoff makes some chill kpop.
I’m setting goal(s)
зима в апреле. Больше цветов для посадки ...
digits, digits, and more digits signifying the void
"NEW WAVE" MUSIK
K o p i k o.
wasting life fast.
my eyelids keep trying to close and put me to sleep. i don’t want that at all. i can not concentrate nor read words on paper when it happens. it's hideous.☹☹☹
I forgot that Jon Hamm was in the Disney film ”Million Dollar Arm”.
It's the final day of spring break.
I love those edits where it's "-song title- but it's in a bathroom" or "how -song title- would sound if you were drowning".
My Russian cursive isn't atrocious any more. (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ
Not a lot happening on this Thursday. -- D M --
I found instructions online on how to make a pinhole camera. I'm going post my finished product when I can. Here's the link: Dirkon
It has been raining very hard all morning. C L I C K
I've been dragging this out for way too long. I have to stop.
As of today, I have a computer and it's a MacBook
falling, not failing
15:20– It’s officially spring break and I’m awfully nervous.
we’re all going nowhere.
The trees are still bare and snow covers the green.
not a lot going on today.
better at my sight-reading in piano.
Today, my arms and my fingers turned extremely stiff and purple. It was freezing.
Don’t forget to listen to jazz
17:46– I haven’t made a new page in a while. I’ll start doing that when I get a laptop.
My desk isn’t cluttered anymore.
I get scared too easily.
Learning Russian seems like an interesting challenge.
18:24—- I’m running out of interesting topics to type up.
My dream synth is the Roland JD-800. I don’t even have the best equipment to produce my own music. I’m still going to take a chance.
All I need is to do the work and drink my coffee. I want a brain that knows what urgency and distraction is.
Again, I‘m not in good shape. I did not stay home.
Still sick and miserable. I stayed home and I really want to watch a dumb movie or the X-Files. I haven’t turned on the TV in ages. I’ve just been taking a lot of medicine, drinking water, and sleeping in intervals.
21:14 —- I didn’t even watch TV. I’m panicking once again about how many hours I have left with such little energy to use.
feeling sick and unhealthy. ugggghhhhh
nasty, painful headache all day long
I've been playing jazz chords on my guitar.
S h a m e.
My face hurts so much.
It's extremely early in the morning and I'm feeling far beyond anything.
melting silver paint
Oh my god. It even has a watermark.
It was 74° F with a cool breeze.
I gave up reading Kafka. It was confusing and dull. It was "The Trial" and I didn't get past the first four chapters. I couldn't find "The Metamorphosis" at the library.
I will never kick my habit of internet-browsing for an insane amount of hours.
I've taken some beautiful pictures with my Polaroid but I don't have access to a top-notch scanner.
I got zero Valentine's Day cards as I expected. What a sordid day for lovers. I've forgotten again.
"Street Spirit (Fade Out)"
All my life, I have been ignoring the washing instructions on the clothing I wear.
I want to complete my Björk CD collection!
I have decent presentation-skills.
This is clearly unacceptable.
I am certainly not feeling it today. I'm a mess, I cannot focus, and bored all the time. Yes, I've probably said something roughly similar before.
I absolutely despise typing up entries like this but I really had to do it. It had to be done.
It’s the beginning of the month and I thankfully haven’t drank any Arizona Tea.
I need coffee...
I got a cool alarm clock from Ikea.
January is the trial month and February is where you decide on whether or not to work them out.
Today, I became a entirely different person.
In addtion to a redesign of my site, I will add more of my own pixel art. I'm starting to see what I can really do with ASEPRITE.
I've probably lost at least fifteen guitar-picks.
”People are afraid to merge on freeways in Los Angeles.”
-Bret Easton Ellis, "Less Than Zero"
100 days of boredom, sorrow, and joy.
I really wanna change the look of my site.
W H Y ?
This site is an utter embarassment.
I fell asleep while listening to Bill Evans with my headphones on. I woke up in the morning at 5 o' clock, to "Like Someone in Love" by Chet Baker.
It was the most perfect thing to ever happen to me this year.
Had a decent day at school.
what is going on
Hyukoh's cover of "Gold" (Chet Faker) has been on replay for several days. That guitar tone, the vocals, drums, bass... everything.
Japanese doesn't seem as overwhelming as it was when discovering that they had three writing systems. I must keep on memorizing and look more into grammartical structure. I think I can succeed despite it being considered a very difficult language for English speakers to learn. I know there will certainly be large obstacles to overcome while studying. It will not be easy at all. I know I'm only starting but my point is, I'm not scared!
20:14-- I'll give up at some point. eh. ( ; ω ; )
Casio made the first "smartwatches".
i wish i had some nachos. this "blog" is strange.
Pictochat is beautiful.
try some smoked gouda cheese, unless you can't consume dairy.
I can't move my neck because of doing curl-ups
I'm a little bit relieved but not at all.
"Put on your red shoes and dance the blues!"
I learned "1 Ghosts I" by Nine Inch Nails on the piano. I've got one day left for winter break...
I admit to liking a song or two off of "Construction Time Again" by Depeche Mode. It's certainly not their strongest work ever released during the 80s. Gahan was not using his voice to its full ability and most tracks lacked any engaging melodies. I know Gore was trying to progress to a more industrialized pop, but it really just failed miserably. The brass sounds take away from the style he was aiming for. In terms of lyrics, themes such as politics showed but were not too sharp. "Everything Counts", the single, is a song I could actually tap my foot to or at least not cringe at. Let's say they were "getting there" and it was a time of exploration.
I may as well start typing up in-depth reviews of my favourite albums of the early 1980s.
My winter break (not done yet): 7.01/10
WHO WAS PHONE???
I never use a DAW for making music. I will invest money into buying a copy of FL Studio or a decent drum-machine. Those are two very different things.
My resolutions for 2018:
Happy new year!! ☆*:.｡.o(≧▽≦)o.｡.:*☆
2017 really wasn't all that great for me. I am hoping to make 2018 a million times better, starting with making this "blog" not as vague.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEhhhhhhhhhhh. goal: tone it down to a -1
I am 37% fluent in Spainish according to Duolingo. I aiming to get even higher with that number as long as I do not give up.
One day, I’ll own a house, a shiba inu, and live far away from the mess America has become. I’ll wait.
I love eBay.
21:26—- I might have strained my neck by looking down at my phone for hours. :( This is why I need a neck pillow or maybe a better use of time. I despise long car rides.
My winter break so far: 6.5/10
I haven’t been able to get near a computer due to traveling.
I don’t remember the last time I’ve intentionally watched TV. Perhaps months ago.
Kirkland water (Costco) is nasty.
Goal:Try to use my computer less; I’ve said it too many times.
Calpico tastes great 70% of the time.
CentOS has been holding up alright since summer.
Baked a cake
17:35–- New Order’s debut album is stunning!
Probably have a cold right now.
19:40-- Planning to invest money into buying F-1 Race (GB) or one of those hidden gems.
Maybe I should use Debian and not Fedora. If I do, I'll have to update this "blog" from my phone.
i'm sick and have an eye-strain. i'm sorry.
I'm gonna cry and bury myself in my pile of Uniqlo clothes.
Trying to spend less time on my computer today. i might try (ಥ﹏ಥ)
17:30-- I finished reading a literary work written by Chuck Palahniuk, titled "Fight Club". A great book I absolutely loved. No disappointments. Liked the style.
My nightmares are always scaring me.
I have spent 50 days doing this. :(
You have made a tragic mistake if you took a bite into a Kit-Kat without breaking it in half. Don't mess up like this again.
Listening to "Warsawa" from "Low" makes me realize I'm lonely.
Weekdays bore me, stress me out, and yet I feel lethargic. I don't want to ever stop updating this website.
I keep telling myself it has a sense of purpose as I get nowhere with my studying.
I desperately need to improve my drawing skills. I want to draw realistically and not screw up on making things proportionate. I'll try to try to make an effort. I've made zero progress and that makes me very sad.
Oh yeah, also, no site-map (unrelated).
Another day where I almost actually fell asleep during a 3 hour orchestra/choir concert.
Site navigation map to be added.
I’m okay at music composition.
I learned the bassline for the Duran Duran song, "Rio" .
In three weeks, I'll have my finals for school.
planning with folders
It's always "I want to" and not "I actually did".
I miss the real MS Paint, it's not same anymore.
I am in serious need of an ergonomatic keyboard.
I am preparing for my five day holiday (including the weekend)! I have a can of Arizona Green Tea and my computer. My goal: draw picture, write music, or whatever. I'll study math and history too.;
I am frustrated with writing Hirigana/Katakana! I'm sorry. (°ㅂ°╬)
At some point, I'll begin to type longer and more interesting posts. I've got plenty of stories to share but I can't put them out all at once.
This is game is excellent: Rockbasher
Daiso is a very unusual store. It's that $1.50 makes you buy more than you need. You'll walk in and know you just need to get a notebook but then you'll pass by the mechanical pencils/ or the snacks... As a result, you get out of Daiso spending $9.00 or more.
I honestly rank "Medúlla" (Björk) the best out of her solo albums.
LibreDraw is one of the worst drawing applications out there. (I really can't say anything else about it)
I'm so exhausted and I haven't done anything productive at all. I listened to 808 State though.
I might be able to add a visitor counter or something on my site sometime. I apologize for being rather vague recently, I don't have a lot of time to use my computer due to studying. Please don't worry, stay tuned.
Out of all the desktops there are to use, KDE is my least-favourable, XFCE in the middle, and GNOME being what I use right now.
Y'all need some potatoes.
I am quite busy for this week! That's all I can say, as I am planning to make my site less of an eyesore
At the moment, I am close to completing Kirby's Dreamland 2 (Hoshi no Kirby 2). After I finish the game, I might check out Trip World.
I have much appreciation for millic's album, "VIDA". Also, I am attemping...
to make my own digital/computer art with the help of Libre Draw (I changed my mind).
I don't like using Libre Draw.
It is getting a little bit colder and darker everyday.
No, I don't write poetry.
I didn't go out because I apparently didn't have a costume.
00:05- even at this hour, i am still extremely overwhemled by the constant shouting i hear on a day-to-day basis.
16:34- still stressed
I'm not in the mood for posting anything positive today, i'm too sad:(
Live CDs/USBs are coooooooool.
Amazing Site: ducksarethebest.
I just might talk about my life but nothing really happens.
Great Scott, Marty! We gotta go back...